today is just one of those days....

Today is one of those days where you would rather stay at work, or not come home... turn off your phone and be all by your self. Have a nice tall glass of something strong. Things are just not going the way I would like. I have to say I am not really happy at the point in my life. There are somethings that I guess are supposed to just happen and that is just life. I am working my ass off to make sure we have a place to live, food in our belly's and gas to get to work... unfortunately I don't feel like I am getting much " I appreciate all you do" I don't recieve anything... more like... " i want this or I want that" I would like to afford this and afford that.... Not only when I have to turn it down...I feel like there is tension. Anger. Like your just being a selfish person, or maybe if there wasn't a event that happened... That we could have this or have that. I feel like sometimes I give things I want just to make ends meet. I get soon stressed.... over little things. I don't know how to express my feelings... till the point I break down. Well I am at my breaking point.

Maybe a little .... Thank you, or is there anything I could do....

Intro.... why you ask?

I notice that my other mother has been blogging and I know that getting your thoughts out instead of keeping them in is better for you. I hate having things on my mind that is bothering me. I am the type of person where I normally keep things to myself..Because when I lived with my real mother she never really wanted to hear what I had to say. So I learned to just never say anything even tho... it hurt, or bothered me. However now I know more than ever that my feelings need to be heard and if someone wants to listen then great... if not fine. I know that I at least tried. I also know that this way people can see my point of view. I also know if you don't like it I don't really care. Everyone is allowed to their own views and their own opinions. Some opinions are better left unsaid and this is where I can release how I really feel. I keep a journal for my more personal feelings... my nitty gritty info... mostly my love life haha. (too bad you cant read that one) I will be writing mostly my frustrations or concerns or whatever my little heart desires.

Names may or may not be changed...